(I don't in any way mean this to be a sermon or lecture. This is just my experience lately and my perspective about understanding the world from the beginning of time until now. I hope you'll read the whole thing before you get angry with me or creeped out or think i'm insane.)
Yes. I am.
I've been thinking about it for months, learning, listening, mulling it over in my mind. But I've decided that I will classify myself, proudly, as a Seventh Day Adventist. I have watched a LOT of videos of lectures by Prof Walter Veith and started reading the Authorized King James Version Bible again (I actually asked for, and received, a very nice Bible for Christmas from my very nice brother ) thanks to the direction of my boyfriend. This change in my life was something I did not want to have happen when it started. I grew up in the Pentecostal denomination of Protestantism and I tried to understand it then. I struggled for years and went back to church a few times here and there. It didn't feel right though. I never felt so much as a twitch, so to speak, from the Holy Spirit. I, like so many people who don't understand at all, thought that God is all about anger and wrath and vengeance. I thought that He was unfair and unloving. I searched online, in books, on tv for years for some way that it would be okay, even virtuous for me to reject any form of religion AND Jesus because the whole thing was awash with corruption and deceit. I was looking for anything which would help me understand the world. I desperately hungered for the truth. It wasn't until I got to know Walter that I, in turn, got to know the true essence of who God and Jesus is. He is the truth.
We're taught, in general, that if you're not so and so, and you don't live your life perfectly, you are lost and you have no hope of ever seeing the light of day. If you break this law or that commandment, Jesus immediately gives up and washes his hands of you and straight to the fires of Hell you go. That is a complete lie. It's a lie that is meant to make US angry and bitter toward this mean and hateful God. It's a lie which is used to enslave us into this mentality that we can never do anything to win the favour of the big grumpy deity in the sky. So we should just give up and deny his existence and shun anyone who has a tiny amount of faith. How DARE they follow such a terrible creature. That person must be just as mean and hateful as the fake God they serve!
The thing they're missing is that Lucifer/Satan is the root of all these lies. He has spent thousands of years practicing how to lie and deceive. He is very good at it now. Everything we know is our own perception. Perception is a very tricky thing. We have no idea what is real and we, as humans, try as we might to understand and be logical and smart, are very easily swindled. We're taught a bunch of things from the day we're born but who knows what is true and what is not. That is the very characteristic which Satan feeds on. He despises the human race and he will do anything to hurt, kill and destroy as many of us as possible. All we can fall back on when deciding what might be the truth is logic, what seems morally correct to us and the idea of who benefits from a lie. I don't want to get into a huge, confused garble of words here so I'll just say, think about who benefits(in his mind) if Satan has deceived the entire world from the beginning of time. It is definitely a complex issue for people to think about unless you just plain don't believe in God or Satan (that's what Satan wants muahahahaha :P ).
On the opposite end of the spectrum is Love. Most people don't seem to understand the nature of God. God really does love us. Think about the relationship between a parent and their child(ren) and the infinite amount of love that they have for them. A parent would do anything, including jumping in front of a bullet, if it was needed, to save their child's life. Who do you think designed us that way. That is the same love (but to a higher degree) which God has for us. He wanted us to understand that which is why he created us to be able to procreate. I know that I probably sound like one of "those" insane Christian freaks but I am desperate for people to understand how this works. Being Christian shouldn't mean that you obnoxiously push your beliefs at people or judge people for petty things like what they're wearing or what they did last night. It's none of anyone's business what anyone else does. It's between that person and God. Being a Christian means you are a changed person. It means you do things for other people because you are in love with Jesus(yes i'm aware of how bizarre that sounds) and because you love to be the best person you can possibly be. But that doesn't mean you go around telling people "oh look, I did this and I did that. I'm such a nice person." Jesus wants nothing to do with that attitude. Jesus wants us to have a passion for being as loving as possible. He wants us to be kind and generous and giving of our entire being no matter what our personal life situation allows. It doesn't matter if you're broke and on the street or if you live in a castle and have billions of dollars. He appreciates a dime from a poor person more than $10,000 from a billionaire. It's all about the intentions and the heart. It has nothing to do with outward appearance. If you are truly a changed person, these attitude changes will be genuine and will come naturally. Doing good deeds because you're "supposed" to means nothing if it's not from your heart.
I've met a lot of people who despise religion, including Christianity, who are absolutely good, well intentioned, moral and generous people. I completely understand where they're coming from when they bash Christianity or any religion. I feel what they feel about it. It's a shame that most "Christians" give Jesus such a bad name. As I said earlier, I grew up in a Pentecostal church and it was there that I experienced the most judgement and exclusion in my life. I completely understand that strong rejection of religion.
I don't want to preach, here. I always despised when people "tainted" their common sense discussion with some annoying pushy preaching. A truly changed person needs to tell everyone about the truth and about how amazing Jesus is but hopefully it's done in a humble and kind and respectful manner. It's when it's "witnessing" out of a feeling of obligation or duty where it usually seems to come across judgemental or preachy. I really hope I don't sound like that myself. But I will say, if you have an inkling of thirst for some understanding of this world, history, politics, why life is so disastrous at times (or always for some unfortunate people), I really recommend learning more about the REAL heart of God and what He wants you to know about yourself. Check out the link about Walter Veith and also his very interesting and enlightening videos or send me an email at maestroamanda@gmail.com
This was pretty long so I should cut myself off here.. The inspiration for this post was this video "Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus" and I found it to make sense but that's because I understand the perspective.
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